She's Got Views

                                                    ........ Image courtesy of paradigmalibu These last few months I've felt as if I have dropped the proverbial ball, my mind has been witness to a stand off between Mental health disorders and things from my past I'd rather not constantly have to relive. It's buried itself into my soul while operating my mindless drone of a body, I've relived every conversation I ever had; thought of Friends long gone as I struggle to open up about my disability. I don't even like calling it that as it feels disrespectful to people like my parents; who's struggle and sheer joy of receiving two disabled free babies has been with me my entire life. But I am not OK - I feel like I have to admit that to the world. A miscarriage has taken me back mentally to a place I've not been for a very long time, and I'm petrified t...

SPOILERS AHEAD... I've spent a long time away from writing, occasionally popping on to write or I'll write about something and end up not posting it because I have been very depressed recently. My mother got very sick right around the same time that I had a miscarriage, I also suffered trauma from the miscarriage itself, which I had no idea could actually happen but it does around 25% of the time. My head has not been in a very good place recently, with the tests and the panic attacks. I had lost my voice and forgotten how to write, but then I went to see Wonder Woman. For two hours that film made me laugh, it made me cry, and it made me feel strong. I felt as though I had to power to do anything, be anything, I went through something terrible and I would make it to the other side stronger. For two hours I forgot about everything I'd been through and just focused on this fun action flick, at no point was I worried or anxious, I just got to see one of my childhood h...